What's the Cost of Sexual Healing These Days?!

 Well hey you guys!

I sit here with a million  things and ideas in my head to blog about yet at the same time I am at a loss.  So much to touch on: friendships, Love, Life, Faith, current events, work and the list goes on and on...

So I put this in draft let my thoughts continue to run a muck in my head for a couple days and now...i'm back :)

One thing that has stuck with me that a friend posted on Facebook was a poem entitled "Sexual Healing" by a college student named Jeffrey Bethke. It was really quite intense and deep.  (Watch below...)

Now, I enjoyed this thoroughly...maybe because I could relate to the words the poet/lyricist was saying.  Often time I think my views are old fashioned especially at my age but honestly I guess I'm OK with that. However, I know that  has ended some relationships for me in past, some before they even start (yeah #94 included from previous blog, still awesome friends though).



I just refuse to lower my standards or my self worth just to say "I'm with someone" especially  if I'm not in a committed relationship.








For example: its like allowing someone not just to window shop take the product home run it down then bring it back with no obligation...really?! Yeah no, I just can't...and in the same breath that same product will be put back on the shelf for someone else to come along and buy it thinking its new.

Used products

For some reason in this day and age we don't value our bodies very much this includes men and women....not all but a vast majority.  I mean look around at the sexual disease on the rise, unwanted pregnancies etc on the rise. We treat our bodies and emotional well being like trash. If we treated our bodies as the temples they are we wouldn't sell them out for a few minutes of meaningless sexual pleasure with someone who probably doesn't even care about us. Often times it's not even for sexual pleasure but for material things. Since we have become such a materialistic society we will sell our bodies for purses, shoes, shopping sprees, cars, video games etc  It's actually very disheartening. Are those things that will be outdated in less than a year worth more than your body? Just think about it?!

Maybe it's me but when I give my body to someone it's out of love and commitment and its means something dang it! Now I am not saying I am not without fault because I have made some mistakes, but I have done some things right too. Now,  I chose to let God keep me and I shall wait for the one he has for me. I can't let  any disturbances interfere with God's work! Even though honestly, I am a sinner and  if the Rock called ehhhhhh that's be hard one to fight (LOL).  I don't knock anyone but I'll just say aren't you worth more?! If you don't think so I'm here to tell you, you are!

Every day we are given an opportunity to make different decisions.  You don't think so? Well you woke up this morning didn't you?! Now I didn't say the choices would be easy,  the right ones often aren't.  Just think about it no not it think about you! What are you worth?

Well that's all for now folks...Blog ya later!!

*For the word document of the poem above you can click here: Sexual Healing Poem transcript

Coming soon...back to the humor with Gym Types and Mannerisms....

A Weird is Normal Poetic Moment

Well the first few blogs came with humor and a message. This one comes the same way buuuuuttt not with as much humor but still a message. This entry is more heart felt. Sometimes I get deep in thought and reflection. Often about life, love and what God has in store for me. Often times we struggle mentally and emotionally with those things. I use poetry as an outlet for these things. Now I am no Maya Angelou but decided to share my poetic thoughts. Just decided to post a couple of poems that I wrote from the heart a few years ago (but they still prove true today). One of them is titled I laugh to keep from cryinig which is how I came up with my blog name. Well here goes. I hope you enjoy....

Laugh 2 Keep from Crying

I'm trying so hard to do what's right,

beaten down like I've been in a fight,

but you could never tell...

I'm going through hell

so many obligations and so many resctrictions

but it's ok I'll get over my conflictions

when you see me I'm silly, laughing and joking

but let me let you in on a secret...

I laugh to keep from crying

I've been through family and friends dying

spouse and good friends lying

making myself a success...

I'm really trying

but I just pray

and I just laugh to keep from crying

I'm struggling to stay up

because people and this world are so corrupt

I'm making ends meet

and we'll end up on our feet

God may let me bend yet never break

He won't put more on me than I can take...

I have that faith but when it gets hard
I just keep my head up and...

Laugh to keep from crying.

Mind Complexities

When you look in my mind, whatever you seek, I hope you find,

Be careful, my ming will engulf, tantalite and confuse you,

Have you in a daze no clue what to do, have you zonin' out,

Wonderin' what this life is all about, enter my cranial flow,
You sure you wanna go? Once you enter your mind will blow,

Like a harsh wind during a thunderstorm,

But don't look surprised because you were warned,

Told all of this ahead of time that when you enter my thoughts

they will blow your mind, deep unclear juxtaposed thoughts,

Contemplating one another, but I know my love for God and none other,

The one I chose, my heart lye's with, never once have I played tricks,

I ignite minds with my heart and soul, these things I must unfold,

Not looking for pampering and charity, but instead providing clarity,

Never realized I could flow with such cluster of words,

Dropping emotions in ways never thought of or heard,

That's because it's the speech of the soul, the language of the heart,

A new communication I'm gunna start, well not me,

The language has lingered and lived an eternity,

Allowing my emotions to soar, foolishness no more,

Pure in my mind down to my core,

Good sensations bring fascination with my interpretation, of love,

Which can bring things to the mind never thought of, bad thoughts I leave,

Now in my cerebrum you have traveled, now entwined,

Can you unravel, out of my mind? our of the mental dimensions of me,

To escape back to reality.

Until next time...Thanks for stopping by and I hope ya'll come back nah! Ya hear!?