What's the Cost of Sexual Healing These Days?!

 Well hey you guys!

I sit here with a million  things and ideas in my head to blog about yet at the same time I am at a loss.  So much to touch on: friendships, Love, Life, Faith, current events, work and the list goes on and on...

So I put this in draft let my thoughts continue to run a muck in my head for a couple days and now...i'm back :)

One thing that has stuck with me that a friend posted on Facebook was a poem entitled "Sexual Healing" by a college student named Jeffrey Bethke. It was really quite intense and deep.  (Watch below...)

Now, I enjoyed this thoroughly...maybe because I could relate to the words the poet/lyricist was saying.  Often time I think my views are old fashioned especially at my age but honestly I guess I'm OK with that. However, I know that  has ended some relationships for me in past, some before they even start (yeah #94 included from previous blog, still awesome friends though).



I just refuse to lower my standards or my self worth just to say "I'm with someone" especially  if I'm not in a committed relationship.








For example: its like allowing someone not just to window shop take the product home run it down then bring it back with no obligation...really?! Yeah no, I just can't...and in the same breath that same product will be put back on the shelf for someone else to come along and buy it thinking its new.

Used products

For some reason in this day and age we don't value our bodies very much this includes men and women....not all but a vast majority.  I mean look around at the sexual disease on the rise, unwanted pregnancies etc on the rise. We treat our bodies and emotional well being like trash. If we treated our bodies as the temples they are we wouldn't sell them out for a few minutes of meaningless sexual pleasure with someone who probably doesn't even care about us. Often times it's not even for sexual pleasure but for material things. Since we have become such a materialistic society we will sell our bodies for purses, shoes, shopping sprees, cars, video games etc  It's actually very disheartening. Are those things that will be outdated in less than a year worth more than your body? Just think about it?!

Maybe it's me but when I give my body to someone it's out of love and commitment and its means something dang it! Now I am not saying I am not without fault because I have made some mistakes, but I have done some things right too. Now,  I chose to let God keep me and I shall wait for the one he has for me. I can't let  any disturbances interfere with God's work! Even though honestly, I am a sinner and  if the Rock called ehhhhhh that's be hard one to fight (LOL).  I don't knock anyone but I'll just say aren't you worth more?! If you don't think so I'm here to tell you, you are!

Every day we are given an opportunity to make different decisions.  You don't think so? Well you woke up this morning didn't you?! Now I didn't say the choices would be easy,  the right ones often aren't.  Just think about it no not it think about you! What are you worth?

Well that's all for now folks...Blog ya later!!

*For the word document of the poem above you can click here: Sexual Healing Poem transcript

Coming soon...back to the humor with Gym Types and Mannerisms....

Blog entry in the Land of Latte

Wow! So I have not updated my blog in quite sometime....whoa, horrible me huh? Yeah well, hey don't judge me! HA! Well I am attempting to do what all cool bloggers do..which is pitch camp at a coffee shop, pop open the ol netbook and get to going right? So... *ahem* at Latteland *check*, got my medium white chocolate mocha latte and super huge gourmet sugar cookie *check*, netbook powered up and connected to free wifi *check.* Ok, so I guess that makes me official (yeah i'm fancy)! HA, now that I have walked you through my set up, I've completely drawn a blank! My mind is just spiraling pit of ideas that have just evaded me! UGH! DANG IT!

AHA *thought popped in*, recently I took a picture of a picture, that's right! (again don't judge me) but it really caught me off guard! Captured a great concept/idea.

Ok so tell me you get it? If not its ok, I'll give you my take on it. Sometimes we start off looking on the bright side of life then somewhere along the road we lose site of that for whatever reason and often we go into worry/panic mode. Well at least this is what this simple picture that is playing on an eye exam chart says to me.

Not to go into my whole life story and struggle but I have been through some VERY trying times this past year that a weak person would buckle at easily! I lost site of looking on the bright side and when you do that you end up in a dark place and a negative person. Let me tell you not a good look at all! However, because I am a believer of Christ I know where to go to gain strength, patience and knowledge to get back on track so I did! So in the word of Bobby McFarren (I think that's his name) Don't Worry Be Happy! Well also in my recent bible meditation and reading I was studying on worrying and how that plagues us. I was reading in Matthew 6:34 it reads " Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble." This touched me and was an eye opener for me as a believer of Christ to say.. hey, if I say, "God I'll let you handle it." I need to let him, he sure doesn't need my feeble attempt to help him do what he has already done!

Well I know usually I have jokes and that will come BUT alot of people around me are going through storms, big and small. Sometimes we all need a little encouragement and in the word of a great ideologist I know that I will refer to as the great Brigini "sometimes apathy goes along way!" May not mean much to you now but add that into your balance of life a little apathy and then you will totally get it!

Here is one more image I will leave you with...

Not a moment too soon!...This older gentleman at the tall table next to me is killing me playing solitaire on his laptop with all the sounds on...so I'll i've been hearing is the annoyng *Dink dink dink dink..* of him dragging and dropping cards then tada! when he wins! I just want to walk up to him give him the old *blank stare* and say sir #FAIL, now go on home with that! However, that thought has been drowned out by a college aged girl with a horrid lisp (spit city I can see it all the way over here when I look up). She is talking to a friend about another girl in the sorority house. #Gossip/Backstabbing now in progress. LOL, this has been quite the silent adventure. One guy just had an epic fail moment he got his coffee, scone, all cords for his computer pulled out..AHA! so he thought and WHAM no power cord and his laptop is dead as a door knob (*cringe* ooo feel for ya buddy). Nothing like hearing someone cuss themselves out! Pure hilariousness...wait is that a word?...ok, what did I tell you about the judging thing *blank stare.* Ok well blog you guys later...*dink dink* maybe even today *dink dink* see that even you guys hear that stupid solitaire game! Ok, like a burnt out light bulb...Be easy breezies! Stay blessed! I'm out!